When it comes to finding balance between work and family, we all have a story to tell.
Maybe you chose to be a Stay-at-Home Mom, maybe you work in an office,
maybe you work from home, maybe you work part-time. Everyone has a story to tell.
Here is mine…..
Finding the right balance between work and home has always been a huge challenge for me. Mostly because I always felt like a failure. How can I do good at work and do good for my family at the same time. I never felt like I could give either 100% of my attention. It caused me tremendous frustration and stress. I would often wonder why I even bothered to go to graduate school and I often wondered why I cared so much about earning that Vice President title. WHO CARES! I did. I worked my you-know-what-off to finally earn that darn title in 2007. Though I quit 5 months later.
The industry I’ve been working in for over 15 years is highly competitive and the environment extremely political. I took a break after year 7, after my 3rd child was born. The day I resigned I sobbed for hours and hours. I had no clue what I just did.
I stayed home with the kids for a few years. It was nice to not have to worry about conference calls and meetings though I felt I had no clue who I was any more. I missed working but I very much enjoyed the time with my children. I felt confused. I put this in the back of my mind so that we were able to enjoy our time together. We made great memories. With two now in public school I knew I was ready to go back. So I did. I was scared. Petrified. I landed at another reputable company and stayed there for 1-1/2 years. I hired a nanny to help me. I filed for divorce. I went to marriage counseling. I rescinded the papers. I got re-hired at prior employer. Too much going on. I had a seizure. Oh my God.
Life moved on….It was not so easy to get back in the door at this company where I once resigned. It’s not like they held a welcome sign out for me that said, “glad you came back!” In fact, I had to interview hard to get back in. I landed the job. This would be different, this job required I hold a non managerial position. Though I lost my swanky VP title, I suffered no pay loss. In fact, what it afforded me was flexibility. Sometimes, changes that appear to be negative really are positive. It’s all how you look at it. I now have more time for my family. I have less stress. I am happy.
I am proud of myself and I am proud of my accomplishments. It took me a very long time to be able to say that.